I have been struggling with patience, mainly with SG. I have confessed this sin, pleaded for help with it. I have seen progress. I have felt God working in this area, but NOTHING like today. Wow, today WAS indescribable! So here goes my story, in hopes to encourage and exalt our mighty God for the riches He is bringing into my family and His Kingdom!
A friend gave me a series of DVDs by Louie Giglio (thank you Angela!). Today, I told SG we were going to watch a discussion about God’s creation. The first DVD called, Indescribable, basically explained and showed what Psalm 19:1 says – The heavens are telling the glory of God, and their expanse declares the work of His hands. It was a beautiful presentation of His galaxies, and universe, and His power and majesty. Also how grace and Christ are written all over it.
As you can imagine, since it wasn’t a cartoon, SG’s interest and attention weren’t long lasting. She started off good but became preoccupied with other things and I was okay with that until she got loud. I asked her to please play a little bit quieter because I wanted to finish the DVD. She looked at me and continued banging the bowl on the table loudly. I asked her to please listen to mommy and play quieter and after the movie we could be loud. Can you guess which choice she made? Still loud. Until….. on the DVD the images changed. Instead of him showing pictures from the Hubble and other space photos, a picture of Christ on the cross was displayed and filled up the screen. It was up there for a while as Louie Giglio read scripture. SG looked at the screen, stared at it for a while, and stopped. She looked at me and said, “Mommy I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you, I’ll be quiet, I love you.”
Tears formed, my heart skipped a beat, I was pierced. My girl SAW Christ. My girl was affected by Christ. In that moment, the literal image of Him, stopped her from her sin. What a profound example God gave me in that moment. I am to show her Christ daily by my actions, my words, my worship, my bible study. I am to put God’s words in her. I am to tell her of His great love for her. I try to do all of that, but I fail at it. With her especially, I lose my patience, I show frustration, I give her orders and want her to do what I say without always teaching her why. But God….but God! In that moment God showed my child Christ, and she was stopped, her heart turned to obedience. It was clear she was sincere.
Can you imagine how the rest of my day has gone?? Right after that I told her the verse I had memorized this week, Galations 2:20- I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who lived me and gave Himself up for me. I know I was supposed to memorize that scripture for that moment with my girl, it was a perfect way to show her what that image was she saw on the screen and what it means to turn away from sin and have Christ live in us. We spent an hour in her room singing, dancing, and praising God as we played the Vertical Church Band CD. Do you know what an encouragement it is to me to hear my girl singing at the top of her lungs “open up the heavens, we want to see you open up the floodgates, a mighty river flowing from our heart, filling every part of our praise!” God has been the center of our EVERYTHING today and we are filled up because of it!
She reminds me of the sweetness and love God pours on me. She reminds me of my weakness, but HIS strength. 2 Corinthians 12:9 – And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.He used her today to show me how to be the mother He has called me to be. SHOW.HER.CHRIST. Everyday, every part of the day, show her Christ. He also reminded me that she is HIS. Psalm 139:16- All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. He knows her, He reaches her, He is working on her. Just as He is working on me, He is planting seeds that are drawing her near to Him. I pray that she will grow to love God, to follow hard after Him, to accept Christ as her Savior. Today gave me a glimpse of that, and was a powerful work in me and an answered prayer to my parenting and patience struggles. Victory! Our work in our children is not in vain. 1 Corinthians 15:57-58 – but thanks be to God who gives us victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your toil is not in vain in the Lord.