2 Corinthians 4:18 – while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
1John 2:15, 17 – Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him…The world is passing away, and also its lust; but the one who does the will of God lives forever.
1 John 5:21 – Little children, guard yourselves from idols.
At times (more than I would like to admit), I look for my value in “likes” and comments on Facebook . I look for my value in how many compliments my husband gives me. I look for my value in the number of vegetables SG eats. The greatest of these false values and idols I have is Facebook. While I have taken it off my phone and feel like progress IS being made, there are still desires to pop on the computer and check it when I think I have a spare moment.
Last night and this morning, I had a victory over this. After a discussion in Lifegroup last night and my prayers to the Lord to guide and direct me in my Bible reading, I picked up my bible when I got home last night. I don’t usually read the Bible in bed at night (one of the few times I feel like I could get a lot of reading done) because I don’t want to make my husband feel uncomfortable. But last night I realized this; The Lord has placed me in a spiritually unequal marriage. He also wants me to read my bible. So I need to let go of my “hiding” and trying to be so protective of him in regards to my Bible studies. He knows I believe in God. He knows I read the Bible. So he SHOULD see me reading it, otherwise he is not seeing me follow up on my beliefs. I see him doing math studies because he is a math teacher. So he can see me doing Bible study because I am a daughter of the King!
So, I picked up my Bible and prayer journal and picked up where I left off in Genesis.(instead of grapping by phone and checking Facebook) And guess what?! My husband just went to sleep. No big deal. While I was reading I was enjoying what I was learning. And I went to bed thanking God for doing exactly what I asked about last night. How quickly He delivered! I learned that Genesis ends with Joseph dyeing. That is just one of the little things I learned but it is starting to sink in, it is starting to seem less overwhelming. This morning I was hungry for it even more. So I started Exodus over breakfast. Then hubby and SG when to clean up the car which left me with some more alone time to read further. Another moment to thank God for! My excuse of not having time is not true. If I ask for it, God will show me those little moments I can do some reading. Proverbs 8:17 – I love those who love me; and those who diligently seek me will find me.
It isn’t just about the history either, which was my goal when starting to read the Old Testament. I want to get a better background and understanding of the timelines, authors, etc.. As I am reading I am getting so much more though. Learning about Moses and his insecurities about speaking hit home to me. Exodus 4:10 – Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” I SO relate to this. I feel like I can only communicate effectively when I write and when I actually speak it is all wrong. But God’s answer? Exodus 4:11 -“Who has made man’s mouth?…Now then go, and I, even, I will be with your mouth and teach you what you are to say.”
THAT is the power of the Word. While I was searching for “history” God taught me something that I can personally relate to. How marvelous is that ??!! He also showed me more of who He is which draws me closer to Him. Studying the Bible should be about Him and my relationship with Him, not just a history lesson. That is what His Word can do.
Lord depend my desire and earning for your Word, for YOU! It is far more important that any book or any website. It is living and active as Hebrews states, but we must OPEN it to bring it alive.